Thursday, July 24, 2008

Question you may never answer

My friend sent me a while before. Very inspiring.
Do you know yourself, or dare not to care?

喂,你邊位?

你知道自己是誰嗎?
有沒有直撥電話給過自己的靈魂內線問自己:「喂,你邊位?」
答案當然不是貴姓名。
別以為這是一條很顯淺的問題,答得到,就是人生中最重要的一條打爆jackpot彩池的問題。

從來覺得,「我.是.誰?」是條攞命惱人又絕頂迷人的問題。
「我是誰」可能是生命中最終極的探索課題,很哲學性的迷思,窮一生去發現去發展去理解去修正去摸索去試煉去沉澱去細認去明白去衝擊去面對去接受去掙脫去雕刻去創造去同時被動又主動的去得出──怎樣的一個自己。
哲人Plato名言:Knowthyself,真難。
因為自己會騙自己、迷失自己、躲避自己、姑息自己,又會隨年月經歷練因修養受刺激而改變蛻變,是停不了的終身歷程。總記得有賢人說過:「每個人都有一份自教的責任」,其實每個人也都有一份自知的責任。

你是否在過自己想過的活?
你知道自己想要什麼的事業、愛情、人生嗎。講真那句喎。

你知自己可以掏得出多少努力血淚尊嚴堅毅時間信念忠誠去換取上面的目標嗎?
你了解自己吃得下多少寂寞吞得了多少情傷放得下多少包袱拿得起多少訓嗎?
你找得回屬於自己的一張臉嗎?
你認得/馴服過心中那張牙舞爪的魔鬼嗎?和自己的worstfear及darkestfantasy對過質嗎?
你鼓起勇氣到自己心房的密室一遊,揭起過地毯底打開過保險箱照明過最幽暗的秘密角落去面對最赤裸裸血淋淋最誠實的自己嗎?見到了認得嗎敢sayhi嗎?
坐在司機位駕駛人生的是否你自己?還是任他人任世俗去操控你?
你是否自己身體靈魂的主人?懂得又斗膽做自己嗎?

「The aim of life is self-development. To realizeone's nature perfectly- that is what each of us is here for.」 - Oscar Wilde。

早前為藝術中心當本年度獨立錄像的評審之一,遇上一部題為《黃梓澄尋黃梓澄》的作品,影片紀錄了導演黃梓澄如何在茫茫蒼生中,去努力尋找那些和他同名同姓的人,看看世上有幾多個怎樣高矮肥瘦或老或幼是男是女的「自己」,去認識他們。我特愛這當中近乎哲學性的「自我」追尋況味,一心好奇的年青導演,似乎對自己作業的深度意味並不很自覺。
令人想起奇斯洛夫斯基的《兩生花》,波蘭人Weronika和法國人Veronique長相一樣,音樂才華一樣,命數不同,兩不相識,但當遠在波蘭的Weronika死去的剎那,法國的Veronique莫名的傷痛得失魂落魄,連巴黎的街道也昏黃得份外淒美。好像自己要死掉一樣。Weronika是世上的另一個Veronique,另一個自己?如莊周夢蝶,兩生迷夢,我是誰,誰是我?還是她們是彼此的soul-mate。

愛情,有說是在人海中尋找自己靈魂的伴侶,自己的另一半,算不算另一個自己?你認得嗎?是希臘神話吧,說人原本是雙頭連體的,掉落凡間一分為二,一生就為尋回自己的另一半,在燈火闌珊處。最怕認錯人。

Tolive與havealife,生存與生活之間,可能就在認不認得自己之別。

蘋果日報08年5月11日
(畢明(廣告腦作總監/影評人))

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Just a "bang"......

Falling could be casual or serious. This may be the casual one. Yet it was fatal. The sound when she hit the ground increased my epinephrine, sooner it changed to another hormone making negative emotion to me such as anger, upset, regretfulness , depression, disappointment, self- blaming... Everything came out with a "bang". Nothing I can do to save her life. Just a little crack end her life. What a cruel world. Her voice were sweet, not as sweet as her sister though. I like her as a normal girl living in a small village, singing a familiar tune. Not so outstanding, very down to earth. She's still with me, but everything is different. She lost her voice, and I lost $200, just a "bang"......

Friday, July 18, 2008

Small is big

Recommended by Monica Calvo in eendar* by Mitsuru Koga(....which found this in Happy Cavalier. You see? This is internet.) Very nice tiny little vases, made by seastone. A lot of natural and a little bit artificial. Weird and beautiful. What else can it can be?

But I wonder which kind of plant can be placed inside these mini container.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Song last forever

I heard this song again tonight in the way back home. My favorite song at all time. More than one time it got my tears. I wish I would be able to sing this song one day in my life.

For those who have dreams in his/her life.
Frank Sinatra - My Way lyrics

And now, the end is near,
And so I face the final curtain.
My friends, I'll say it clear;
I'll state my case of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full -
I've travelled each and every highway.
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets? I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course -
Each careful step along the byway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew,
When I bit off more than I could chew,
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill - my share of losing.
But now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way -
Oh no. Oh no, not me.
I did it my way.

For what is a man? What has he got?
If not himself - Then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way.

Yes, it was my way.


This is Robbie Williams' live version at Albert Hall.
You may also check out the original Frank Sinatra version.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Everyone is bringing a creature

I believe everyone has his/her very own creature bringing along with. They are weird, beautiful, emotional, bulky, lonely, charming, supernatural, mysterious, sometimes invisible. I wanna draw them out one by one. It's difficult cause they change every minute. But at least I have to draw mine.





Drew sometimes before. Just have time to scan them.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Facebook Myth?

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